Wednesday, September 28, 2011
Looking back at time and reminisce those days where we would just
chill by the skatepark or somewhere soothing in town, makes me feel
like I've lost someone very important in my life. Still remember the
first day that we actually met on 24th of November vividly like it
was just yesterday and it seems like...you are totally gone.
I've been waiting for you to actually even drop me a text but I
barely even receive a reply back.
It seems like you are having a good time from what I can notice,
so I promised myself not to get into your way, no matter how much
Im dying to just kick it like the old times.
I've actually feel like I've lost someone that had so much in common
with me and we used to do those things together. Like chilling on the
rooftop garden, walking aimlessly around town and we would also stood
dumbfounded in the middle of no where because we had no idea what to
do or where to go. And our solution was always by using coin. Haha
Good times that I actually really cherish.
But of course, good things always have to come to an end. I know
I was going to lose you when you mentioned that you were going to
start working in a studio. I didnt tell you because I didnt want
you to feel the way like I felt and also I didnt want to believe
myself. And you told me that you wont ever leave the zone but it
seems like you do, So I kept waiting and waiting. But it's all
clear now, and I guess I was right, truth hurts..So much for
getting my hopes up. We're drifting apart, it hurts for me
to know that we have to go our separate ways, but there's nothing
i can do i guess.
I know you're happy with your life right now and so I wont ever
get in between you and your dream. I know you are doing good
right now and keep doing you. Keep smiling.
I actually..really do love you so much but of course, who would
want such an imperfect person like me isnt it. And I'm sure that
Im nothing to you...at all.
The feeling of losing few friends is really haunting me right now
and Im afraid. Maybe im really destined to be alone in this life.
Maybe I'm just over-thinking..but maybe not?
I dont know...But Im just afraid.
To lose someone close..over again.
As Wide As I Smile On The Outside, Knowing You Are Doing Good...Im Hurt Inside